mind over muffins

i’ve moved out of here

and to avoid strange* people from finding me or following me, i’ve decided to not put a link to my new home here.

anyways, you who i have connected with and who i wish to remain connected to will know where to find me as i’ve started following you with my new tumblr.

thank you in advance to those of you who will decide to follow me back over there too. =D

*people who post pictures and things which i find really offensive.

it’s time to move on

as much as i have tried to get back on track with this blog.  i find myself less and less motivated to write, update, keep myself in check, and be accountable for all things fitness related.

it frustrates me that i am not in the same timezone with about 95% of you whom i follow and who follow me back.  thus, it is difficult to communicate in a constant way, much less in real time.  add to that the tiresomeness of having to explain to all those who try to reach out to me that i cannot follow you with this blog because of the way tumblr designed itself. =P

i think it is time to start anew and this means, for me, to create a new blog, a primary one, dedicated to my journey of getting fit by the time i’m 40; it is a mere 5 months from now.

i will not delete this blog for reference purposes but i will unfollow all fitness related blogs and start following only the ones which truly inspire me when i create my new fitness-related tumblr.

i would like to once again thank all those who follow me here and actually read my posts.  i know there are very few of you. =D  nonetheless, i feel blessed to have virtually met you.  see you soon in my new tumblr!

Dear Little Blog,

I’m back.

I know, i did not keep my end of the deal. i said i’ll be back when i reach 159 or when June 2011 arrives, whichever comes first.

Well, i weighed 157 lbs. in the last week of May. I did not update my records because i knew i would just gain it all back after going on a 3-week vacation. And guess what, i did gain. I’m now 161 lbs.

4 freakin’ pounds. which isn’t so bad i guess. so i’ve started operation: get back to 157 lbs. pronto by doing 2 simple things:

1. walk/run 3 times a week, at least.
2. portion control.

i’ve started doing both and will post a big weigh-in post when i get back to 157 lbs., okay. i know you will understand that i am pretty busy in all the other aspects of working-mommy life, which means i still won’t be posting as much. =(

anyhoo, It’s great reading my dashboard daily again, which as usual is so full of inspiration for me.

Love always, Chiara

here’s the deal:  nothing is working out for me right now.  heck, i’m not even really trying.  The most i can manage are occasional spurts of physical movement and trying to eat good portions even if the food choices aren’t the best ones.

the schedule right now is crazy and i absolutely have no self-control/discipline/what-ever-you-wanna-call my lack of motivation and determination.

all i know is that when my days go on regular routine, by June, i will be able to get a hold of myself and continue on this journey head-on and headstrong.  as for now, i will content myself with the seemingly small but to me as yet unreachable mini-goal of tipping the scales at 159 and trying the best i can to eat well and stay as active as possible without stressing myself out.

when i started this blog i knew that this is a journey to changemy eating and exercise [or the lack of it] habits and i vowed not to fall into restrictive diets because i am sure to fail.  I lost 15 lbs by eating in moderation and a little exercise.

i will lose more if i keep it simple like this.  no more trying out new diets, not for now anyways.

i want to thank all of you who have given me friendship, support, cheered me on with your likes and comments, or have simply kept me in your dash and read my posts.  I appreciate YOU very much.  and those 15 lbs. i lost? i’m 100% sure would not have happened without the inspiration i get from all of you.

so on this note i bid all my tumblr friends arrivederci, i will be back in full force by June or when i reach 159, whichever comes first.  i just need some quiet time right now.  i hope you understand. i won’t give up, i promise.

i hope to see you here all again by then.  a big hug to each one of you!

some NSV’s

to help put me in the right direction:

1. I am now at my lowest weight since i first got pregnant.  Still overweight, but i’m going to weigh just right.  Soon.  Okay, that isn’t an NSV, but i still want to point it out.
2. i’ve had to get rid of 75% of my clothes because they no longer feel right and i believe that i must dress the part if i want to feel better and better about how i look.  The thing is, i still have no desire to shop for clothes.  i only bought a pair of pants, sized large [i used to be XL] because i direly need it.
3. many people have noticed and have told me that i have gotten smaller.  and many means more than the fingers on one hand.
4. even if i still cringe at my mirror image, i cringe less now.  sometimes, i actually smile at it.

Here’s to more reasons to smile about, SOON!

Dear Me,

Let me remind you that we [past me, present me,and future me] can’t wait to get out of the 160’s.

We have had to change our goal dates so as to get on in this journey and have something ideal to look forward to.  140 lbs. by July 9, that’s to coincide with the 6th wedding anniversary, is not something difficult to achieve.

So let’s seriously get in this weight-loss groove okay.  Sitting on the 160’s for almost 3 months now is not something we planned on doing.  So stop jeopardizing our newfound will to move our butt by putting junk like a a handful of pringles, a slice of chocolate cake, and that seemingly-harmless-spoonful of rice in our mouth okay!

We already know that these little things add up and before we know it, another wasted week has passed and we are again further delayed in our journey.  And they’re not even worth the empty calories!  Be a mindful eater!

frankly, i don’t care if sticking with paleo is difficult and stressful to achieve at times, especially on busy days when we must eat out.  but we both, all three of us, know that paleo is good for us; it makes us feel satiated but not bloated, and it keeps us from wanting to eat junk.  so let’s get on with the program shall we?   Never mind all the challenges we sucked at and all the rabbits we failed to chase.  The time is now.  No excuses.  Just results.  Just as January always says.

Go on.  Chop-chop. I expect everything, and I MEAN US, to get better at this from now on.

Now just go DO IT!

Love always,

Me, especially our Future Me.

Today’s Sweat Session

was brought to you by this.

minus:

the reverse rear fly

plus 2 sets - 15 reps per set of:

dumbbell lateral raise

dumbbell curl

triceps extensions

Dear Blog

forgive me for being MIA, okay, not really MIA as i read my dashboard daily.  but i have not had the motivation to post anything.  i still take pictures of food but, less and less now.  and i don’t even post them anymore.

maybe it’s because of my old ‘all or nothing’ habit.  because i deem myself FAILED at the April paleo challenge, i suddenly lost all motivation to record my progress.  not that there’s been much of it.

and i’ve stopped going to MFP too. it’s finally happened.  i no longer need to count calories.  i know how to compute estimate them with my eyes and i know when i’ve had enough.  so i’m going back to the everything in moderation route and have to content myself to just being paleo-ish.

so maybe that’s it.  no, there’s more.  i’ve failed on my third rabbit as well.  i simply have not been able to follow the exercise map i painstakingly planned out at the start.

but it’s not that i’m gaining.  i’m still 161ish.  at most i’m stagnant.  and i HATE it.

so that’s the whole story, little blog.  in a nutshell.  how do i get out of this nut rut i’m in?

[uggh, i had to link the rabbit to the original post and now i’m reminded how my april is not being awesome. =P]

i’m still here and i need help in the moving my ass department, as per usual. =(